I feel too fat to be body positive and have a strong dislike with how I look. I know I try and open my posts here with more positive intentions but the truth is my body confidence is one of the things I am struggling with right now. I feel like with Spring really and truly here now my SAD is slowly fading behind and with the early rising sun and longer stretches of daylight I feel more empowered, inspired and willing to make changes.
I want to start with body positivity so I’m looking for some new books to read and podcasts to listen to to help change my mindset when it comes to intuitive eating. I want to help myself break down the mental barriers that cause me to overeat emotionally now that I’m in a place where food is truly in abundance – as I’m an adult and I can control what I bring into my home. However, as a child, I didn’t have control and that child is still controlling my eating habits.
I am on a journey of self love and self discovery and with that comes a chance to listen to my mind, body and soul. I want to learn to trust myself, enjoy myself and appreciate myself more. Right now I don’t feel body positive and I don’t want to spend the rest of my life constantly stepping on and off the sad step but I do want to feel body confident. I do want to but trust back into my choices and I do want to break down some emotional barriers to help me feel better.
I have become very angry at diet culture recently because it focuses on deprivation rather than focusing on healthy habits. I don’t want to spend my life feeling guilty if I miscounted a sinful doughnut. I don’t want to spend the rest of my life weighing out and calorie couting. I simply want to enjoy food when I fancy it, be wholesome, nutritious and a good food role model for my kids. I don’t want them to grow up in a household that focuses on “good” and “bad” food but instead focuses on moving together, enjoying cooking and experiencing new flavours.
Body confidence is going to be the biggest step I take on my journey of self love and I hope you take the next step with me.